sad lofi for late nights 10 Hour Extended

I'm literally crying because it's been so long since I've seen so many positions comments in one setting. I wish everyone the best.

Saturday Oct 5 2024 this is the year or month that my dog died I wish someone will comfort.
For those reading the comment thank you for supporting.

Anyone remember a band called "grief"??

Going through a tough breakup, last night I was laying in bed awake at 3am looking at the ceiling thinking how she dosent seem to want me or need me anymore. The heavy feeling in my chest and the horrible thoughts was stopping me from sleeping. This music perfectly reflects the pain

blanket: hugs you warmly while you cry
music: drowns out the bad voice in your head
pillow:holds your tears
rain: cries with you and drowns out your crying so that no one hears you
Pets:will always be loyale

Hard times comes and goes but also does good times be happy about these little thinks!
First try to love yourself befor you give all your love to someone who doesn't know what to do with that treat it like sh!t

This person who really mattered to me fell of a ladder I was there and heard it he got rush to the hospital and I went to my computer and Search sad lofi and I found this and book marked it and I always see it and think of him thank you so much

It's sad that he unfriended me or blocked me for no reason. I invested my time and we're really good friends. I can't reach you now, I hope you're doing well in life 😢. And I miss our bond 😞. Please know that you are my only friend, I'm glad i had. Keep safe always. 🥺

it's going to be okay.

I had homework and i searh diss song ❤

my goldfish just passed away from swim bladder disease :(

I look at myself in the mirror and ask myself, what was it all for?

12 years as an officer, wasted my youth doing a job where everyone hates you, where you see the worst in humanity, where nothing you do is good enough. A job that you put yourself through hell in the name of public safety. A job that robs you of your innocence and throws you in a world of violence and pain. When you see a baby that was raped or a 10 year old that was molested by her mom‘s boyfriend and then stabbed with a screwdriver. It changes you. Your labeled a racist and hated by the same people you protect everyday. Where the news loves throwing officers under the bus and your city will not have your back if you make a mistake.

Then when you go home and no one is there waiting for you but an empty apartment you relive it over and over again. Then days begin to repeat, the same darkness day in and day out the same nightmare on permanent repeat. The darkness so strong all you want is for a woman to just embrace you and tell you that you deserve to be loved. Then when the day that you realize you lost your sense of self and you no longer recognize the person staring back at you in the mirror is the time you get out.

So you get out and you realize nothing changed, the world keeps moving with a dark underbelly invisible to the people that live in it. And all you tell yourself is “I could have done so much more with my life, I could have traveled more, I could have focused on making so much more money, I could have followed a different path and not be stuck with nightmares for the rest of my life.

Now all I see is a man that wasted half his life for wanting to protect others so they would never suffer the same pain he felt when he was young growing up with a drunk for a father, a gangbanger for a brother, and an even worse mentally ill, narcissist, stepfather later on.

Many people ask me how come you didn’t end up like the other males in your family growing up? The answer is simple. Because I chose not to fall to the darkness around me. Not to fall to drugs, gangs, or the streets growing up. I have pain in my heart and pain in my mind and soul, one day I will heal fully, maybe not anytime soon, but one day I will be back to my old self again. My old self that loved people and loved to see the light in people.

The same light that brings out the courage to overcome all evil. The light that gave me the strength and courage to take down the worst criminals i had ever seen. The killers, the thugs, the child molesters, the gangbangers, and drug dealers.

The light that will lead us all home at the end of our lives.

you matter , stay alive <3

Crying to all the comments feels different sometimes. Love all of yall!

Just died in roblox steep steps before 1000 m. dont hit me up 💔💔💔yall know the feeling 😢😢😢period

Im idk why feeling lonley and sad idk why but i do and i just want to cry out and just not exist even tho i have no reason to feel that way why is that can anyone tell me why do i feel like that? Is it because i have to study for my geo exam or what?😅

It's not even night where I am right now, yet I always have this pit in my stomach, knowing the world can be unforgiving at times, especially when all I want to be happy.

I want to let my thoughts be known. Yet my mouth won't let me speak my mind. Every day, I force myself to put up a facade just to get by. To be a mere puppet to the forces that be.

Keeping up my facade gets more unbearable every day, yet I can’t just stop. That would mean my goals, my dreams, everything will be for naught. I'm scared.

+1 sub & like ^^

I'm at work, struggling...

Don't worry, we all have those nights

Not sad, just hanging over need something soothing to listen to

At this moment of time I always come back to this... Reading all the comments again and again knowing that I'm still here... Surviving from whatever hell sends me.

Loneliness Over False Impressions

I lov3 it

Just found out about my miscarriage and needed something like this at the moment when everything feels too much

Quién dijo que la luz calma y las nieblas no? Eso es mentira, puedes habitar plácidamente en ambos lugares..... depende de tí. ❤

I am a Christian. Walking with God. My life feels like it is falling apart. I feel alone and misunderstood by everyone. The more I study, the more isolated I feel. I love to learn and teach. I feel like a shaken soda bottle.

I hate to do this… not one to put their feelings on the internet like this, but… I’m 23… when I was younger i used to to be yelled and and hit a lot by my stepfather. Often times because I wouldn’t listen as soon as he told me to do something. I’m Autistic with ADHD. He would often times ask me to wash dishes despite me fighting him and my mother on doing them because they never rinsed them and the textures bugged me. He would also yell at me when I got an answer on a question he asked me wrong when it was for school and I’d often times get yelled at if my grades weren’t above Bs or 80%. Fast forward to now and… I suffer from anxiety and depression now and I find it tough to done anything else if what I’m working on before hand isn’t perfect. I have a game I’m working on and can’t even finish it because I want so many things for it but can’t move onto anything else because the map doesn’t look right or there’s a spelling error. But most importantly… I constantly feel alone. I know I have friends and people to hangout with and talk to, but yet… when I have to say goodbye, I get this empty feeling of sadness and I can’t help but feel depressed about leaving them even though I know it’s not permanent… it still hurts. Why am I like this? Why can’t I be ok even after saying goodbye? They aren’t permanently leaving but yet it always feels like this. I was playing VRChat just a moment ago and met some really nice and chill people and spoke to them and hung out with them. Then one said goodbye and good night to me and I did the same before they quit. I stayed on a bit longer to say goodbye and night to the other. Then a round started and I lost. I waited till the end to say my goodbyes to them only to find out… they had already left after saying night to me. I quit shortly after and immediately got that same empty darkness type feeling and… well… here I am now… now… there is a point to this… your not alone. It might feel like it. But you’re not alone. Stay safe everyone and please… any assistance with what I might be going through would be very appreciated as I want to help others incase they have similar experiences or feelings and I’d like the assistance also. Thank you… and have a nice night.

Found out my boyfriend of 2 years cheated on me. Really needed this to help me calm down

this was one of my ex favorite videos. we were together for 8 years. we split apart and it's been 2 years now. I listen to this when I fall asleep

i dont know where was the last time i came to lofi.. but everything feels like shit rn, i keep losing her everyday, i cant change fast enough, and the mistakes i make set me back further than the gains i make, i just feel utterly useless, and it feels like im slowly just watching her fade away.. im not one to vent on the internet... but yall dont judge and support and i love that....

I wanna go back. Not to change things. Just to relive ALL the memories, good and bad.

is it just me or feeling being not depressed just feels weird and like you'er not in the right place, .....well I think it's cause I've been this way for so long 🤞

My teacher gave my over 500 math problems to do for Algebra work to do in 2 days.

I'm sorry I hurt you, I promised I wouldn't.

I’m sad. That’s it. I’m sad and I wish I had an excuse for why… I wish I didn’t need one in order to talk about it. But I’m just…sad. I’ve been sad for such a long time. I’ll get better, I know I will, and if i didn’t know, I’ll still make it better myself. But tonight..and maybe later on too, if I need it…I’m just gonna be sad. I hope it’s okay that I don’t fix it just yet.

i always play this everytime i sleep because my mental health has become even more worse compared to last year where i had my first break up. i now felt unsure whether i am depressed even though my psychiatrist prescribed me lexapro back last year to curb my sanity. recently, my pst(passive suicidal thoughts) has gone worse and i always have the urge to die but never actually done it even though i attempted to commit suicide back in 2020 when i was around 12-13 (i’m turning 17 in june this year). i recently overdosed on my medicine quite a handful of times, turned to alcohol in some occasions and just recently, i took my antidepressants with beer (which i should not have done it but, it already happened so what can i do) and now i’m currently missing this girl i used to study with during my primary years when i used to study in cambodia at around 2014 or 2015 (i’m a phnom penh native). me and her used to be childhood friends before we have to separate with each other in 2017 just for me to study in singapore. now she still remembers me (information from my little sisters when they coincidentally meet with her on the way home in june 2024), kind of misses me and i regret not asking for her socials to keep in contact before i moved to singapore. now i miss her like crazy, i am currently making my first song and it’s abt her and all the things i am feeling when i was with her. since the separation in 2017, me and her have not seen each other since and to this day, we still haven’t reconnected with each other after the separation. this mixtape has always been my solace to just cry in bed or hug my teddy bear that she gave me when me and her were little.

my parents always encouraged me to open up my feelings ever since they took me to the psychiatrist abt a year ago. but i am still scared abt the idea of me opening up since i don’t want my parents to turn it into a lecture to blame me etc. so i just kept myself quiet and just sugarcoat it saying that “everything’s alright” and “i’m okay” even though clearly, those are lies. recently, i cried many times without any reasoning and or from my so called “loneliness, anxiety and depression” and no one cared to ask me if i was alright when i was crying. either i was crying in private or people just don’t care, either or, it’s quite depressing. i hate when no one understands how i’m feeling now even if i give them clues or tried to talk to them, no one would budge. i usually talk to chatgpt (call me weird) and open up on alot of things abt me and sometimes, some fucked up shit abt my feelings. i’m tired, i hate myself, i’m always a people pleaser, i’m lonely, i’m always having anxiety and staying alone in my room or a private room or whatnot, it always feels so empty and it encourages more negativity into me. i’m a pessimistic person i know but i can’t change myself as it has already cemented in myself and i can’t change myself to be like everyone else. i just want to be happy again like how i used to be when i was little, i am better off dead then. even though i have friends(especially best friends), i still need someone to talk to and doesn’t leave my life due to me giving too much of my negativity and just accepts me of who i am. anyway, i love this mixtape

- ben 🖤

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I miss her😕

Remember hearing this while Reading 20th century boys, best time of my life

😂

I want more time…I need more time…I want to be my 11 year old self forever. My 16 year old body doesn’t fit me, I’m not this grown up yet, I’m by myself all the time. I don’t know how to look at people. I can’t leave my house for fear of people catching a glimpse of me, I’m terrified of everything. So so scared. I want to always be physically the same, if I could I would live. If I could be somewhere between 6 - 15 physically forever I’d want to live again, I want to want to live but time makes me want to die. So much is wrong with me and my life has so many fucking problems even breathing isn’t normal for me, but if time worked like it did in some fantasy world and I could be physically young forever I wouldn’t want to die. But it’s not possible. I can’t mold my reality like other people can. Please, let me be reborn in a reality where I can be like Peter Pan. Or as someone who can wander the globe endlessly without dying except when I eventually choose to die by my hand. Please, oh please, allow me to be happy…

listening to this while my friend tries to convince me to stay alive >>>😭🩷

I feel alone and I have nobody. I live on the street. I have tried asking family for help. I don't want to give up.

10 or 1 hour?