an overdue apology

I feel like you shouldn't be too hard on yourself. We clearly don't know exactly what happened but if you had suspensions to people also bad mouthing you there has to be some truth to it. That doesn't excuse doxxing someone but I can see why you might have also posted in gossip forms.
Theres always 2 sides to every story and I don't think you should be taking all the blame because there has to be a clear motive that pushed you to do those horrible things.

this is honestly so strange to hear from you. i would have never imagined that you would be capable of doing such a thing and i'm really shocked. it is very disappointing.. but i wish you and rachel the best. i read down in the comments that rachel has already accepted your apology and is moving on and she seems like such a strong person for that. i hope you continue to grow as a person and work on becoming the best version of yourself.

People deserve a second chance... repent, reflect, give back and grow from it

This is really unexpected honestly,I dont really care of what happened in the past as long as she apologized,regretted her actions,admitted her mistake and changed then its alright for me there's no need to make it harder for her Ill not stop watching her videos cause I really like them.Gotta say it's really amazing for her to confess it publicly I respect^^

Anyone know what really happened

I feel you there, because I used to the same thing on Facebook when I first sent a post of me committing suicide and it upset everyone, including my cousin so I feel you and I forgive you

I respect you so much Cari, for this unpleasant, public apology. they may say it was needed.. but confessing like this publicly is the bravest thing to do. we probably all did things we're not proud of, and we should take it and grow better. love 💜

Can someone explain what his is about?

I did not know anything about this. But you making a video like this, is inspiring - even tho it comes from a bad place. I root for you. Good luck with everything 🥰 love from Denmark 🇩🇰

We are not defined by our mistakes. Its what you do after you have made the mistakes that makes all the difference... life teaches us a lesson everyday, thats the beauty of it 🙂

This was a tough one to film ❤️ thank you for showing us to owe up to our actions

Cari, sending you hugs. This video made my heart hurt for you and for Rachel. Set down the baggage and go forth into the world and be your best self. Be kind to yourself, dear one.

You are very brave to have made this video. We all make mistakes behind the scenes, and your honesty and working through this is very admirable. May God give you and Rachel much peace throughout this healing journey.

I have always loved your filming and editing and your personality on video, and you have inspired me to one day start my channel too, even though I am much older than you. It must have taken so much courage to make this video. I really respect that you are doing everything you can to make things right. May God heal both of your hearts. 💕

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I wish I had am apology from the boy who bullied me. Even just to know he remembered doing something to me back in 2011 that I still think about. That it effects how I view myself still, that I have to actively think and tell myself that its not true. I am glad you are growing as a person, I don't think dwelling on what has happened works for either side. An apology and an explanation can help with that growing.

This is very disappointing

Wtf is wrong with u

What in Penthouse White version of Rona & Eun Byeol is this?

why would you do such thing...............

Rewatched this video because rachel posted another one about it. And i dont see the point why she did it but maybe simpyl to express herself? She has every right to anywAy. But i think should really move on. I feel like she’s complaining because you delted the negative comments in this video., or because you seem okay now. So does she want you to continue to suffer? Like she wants people to choose between you and her.

I’m not really a fan because i don’t know you personally but your videos are really nice.

I think rachel should move on for her sake. She said that her priority is being at peace. She also said that shes a pretty mature person but rewinding past hurts is really not mature. She’s only totturing herself.

*****Hey Cari, Super quickly, I just want to remind you that you don't owe anyone anything, you are not responsible for the actions people take on their own lives even when you made a mistake based off impulses that affected that person during the time. Something that also affects our mental health is continuously being reminded of the mistake we once made when all we want is to move on from it. I completely get you don't want anything to do with this anymore since it was part of your past, I believe you'll make the right decision in maybe reaching out to Rachel so this can stop. It's so unfair of someone to come for you YEARS after the initial issue when you are in a good place in life and in your stability. Anyway, I hope you can move on from this residue and continue to make great videos <3

humans are weak. we behave mostly based on mood and mood is fickle it's derived from lots of things. everyone makes mistakes. don't mind negative comments here. it's a vicious cycle.

Uhhhh what happened? Can someone fill me in on this??

I just learned about this issue and I'm disappointed. I've been a subscriber for a long time and I enjoy watching your videos.....

See I real person apologizes without a scrip and in detail of what happened. I’m glad you came to your mind and apologized sincerely. Thank you.

When i first saw this video i didnt think much of it cuz i didnt know anything about the situation, but few days ago i saw rachels new video and it made me rethink some things. I must admitt I was sort of dissapointed when i realised to the extent that this went and i dont even know everything that happened but if anything i believe people can change. I cant know if cari has changed but she has been a huge source of comfort for me and helped me in some of the most anxious moments i've been thru and she seems like a good person. Good people can do bad things and i hope cari has changed since back then and never does anything similar, which i believe she wont.

Well to be honest, i have never expected that from Cari, just because she seems so positive person. But everyone makes mistakes at some point of their life. I see that what happened have really bad infuence on Rachel, and im really sorry for her. I hope she will get over that incident :( And also im a little bit concerned for Cari, i hope she will get better mentally too.
And people let's not forget that everyone has done something bad in their life (even once). We are not so innocent, so stop judging so hard. Im proud of Cari that she is seeking help, it's the right thing to do, and that she realized that what she has done is really bad. It's true that Cari cannot undo the trauma that caused to Rachel, but there's no point to keep making it hard for her.
And Cari It's better for you to stop deleting others criticism. There will be always people that will say bad things about you, no matter if you have done something bad or not. This way you will prove that this apology is really genuine. And im hoping you will learn from this.



(P.S. : Im saying all that as your supporter. No bad feelings. Stay safe.)

I don't feel betrayed, I feel safer that you put above being clear to us. It was a big risk for you and you took it and it takes great courage. We are all human and make mistakes, smaller or bigger. And sometimes our behaviour has such deep roots that takes huge effort to cultivate yourself and evolve. Sometimes it's not entirely under our control and we need help. And you seeked out for help. And I want to send you so much love and recognize your inner progress. And I wish you continue to try. It's alright, it's time to forgive yourself and feel that you are truly a good person, of course within our limits as human beings.

I watched both videos. Rachel seemed not too forgiving in her video. She was too distracted doing her makeup. I feel this video is alot more honest. Cari seems truly ashamed and it isn't easy for someone to admit to something like this. So I can say I feel proud that Cari has come clean and tried to fix her wrong doings. She looked for help in therapy and that's very important.. Bullying is NOT okay but it's something that has to be taken care of. I feel both girls should move on with their lives. You only live once so live your life wisely 😌🙌🙏

You've owned up to your past mistakes, now you can only grow and move forward

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I definitely did not expect a drama from Cari's channel. Reading the comments here, I am more disappointed in the audience than in Cari honesty. I am in no way trying to say that what Cari did wasn't bad, of course it's horrible, but she has made a sincere apology, she found help for herself and I think that is what matter. People are talking here about Cari bringing them so much positivity and joy to their days through YT, but suddenly become so judgmental. Everyone makes mistakes. Rachel has forgiven to Cari and I think we should be supporting Cari when she is trying to put herself through a mental health battle instead of shaming her. I love Cari and love her content and I will continue supporting her because I do believe that positivity and support goes a much longer way than hate and shaming.

"Forgiveness heals + it doesn't mean you don't hold yourself accountable. I see a lot of accountability wrapped up in this idea of shaming, self punishment, + self loathing. True accountability moves forward with love + deeper awareness." - Nicole Le Pera

wow cari. I searched your name and saw “cari apology” pop up and I thought hmm? what could this possibly be about? there’s no way cari could possibly be involved in a scandal she seems like such a genuinely good person...this is all really shocking and disappointing to hear, I would’ve never expected this from you. I’m glad you took accountability and acknowledged your wrong doings. I truly hope you’re being genuine and continue to reflect on your actions and work on bettering yourself.

Mental illnesses (stress-induced or genetic) are real, and I think the important thing is to give people grace that may be dealing with intense or subtle expressions of certain mental illnesses. As someone who has several friends with certain mental illnesses that cause them to have paranoia to varying degrees of extremeness...the world needs people to be understanding of these things and to allow people to get the help they need when they have been not only on the receiving end of someone's actions that are result of a mental illness but also the one doing them. Now, what Cari did was not right to Rachel and her loved one's privacy, safety, and overall health, however it really is important to not be overly critical and unforgiving of someone's actions, especially when something like paranoia is involved...
Sometimes the greatest battle someone faces in life is not external but one that is internal...

I always loved you as a genuine person, been watching you since 3-4 years. I Will always support you no matter what! Every human makes mistakes and the brave thing you can do is learn from it.
Lots of love❤️

this was surprising

You’re human! You fell to sin just as we all have. You were thinking only of yourself and not about how your actions hurt rachel. i only see the human flesh in this situation, and i see great strides by you making this video to own up and be honest while also working hard to help those hurt by it. We must forgive those just as Christ has forgiven us. Love you Cari, i hope that you and rachel are both doing well!💛

why was this ob my recommendation?

Well obviously at the time you were thinking something happened. Forgiven is an understatement. Love your channel and everything you post. It’s so helpful for us who can’t sit and read an 800 page book (or whatever) so thank you for what you do! Xoxo

❤❤❤❤ takes so much courage to do this Cari. Wishing you well❤

Everyone, YES YOU TOO! makes mistakes. And we change. So before you judge everyone else fix your own shit. Guess what we all have made poor choices at one point in life, and EVERYONE does this just in different ways.

This was certainly the last thing I expected to see when I randomly decided to see what Cari's top viewed videos are. But it was years ago, people live and learn and grow. Wild.

Hi! I need to clarify that Rachel never once asked me to make this video. I asked for her permission to make a public apology because I was getting comments about it and wanted to come clean to my channel. She took a huge risk by allowing me to make this. Yes, this vid exposes me, but it also exposes her and her private life to scrutiny and judgment that she did not ask for. Any hate, judgment, or negativity sent her way needs to stop now.

This happened between May to September of 2017. I came forward and apologized to Rachel in December of 2017. People are saying that I revealed private info like addresses, places of work, phone numbers, info about her family members, etc. I would never expose where someone lives or anything mentioned above.
Her address, workplace - anything other than the name of her boyfriend - was never posted or even hinted at anywhere by anyone. Rachel would corroborate that.

After seeing photos she posted of her boyfriend, I posted my guess of who he was (I was not positive at the time).

I never contacted her directly (like sending harassing messages, etc). I only spoke back and forth between her friend and others on a gossip forum.

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I’m adding this because of new comments and messages I'm receiving. Rachel and I worked on this video together - she saw previous recordings and asked for edits and specific things to be added which I did without question. I only published this take when I got her blessing. I did and still do sincerely apologize. I left out specifics in this vid because I didnt know how detailed I should be - this is personal to Rachel. I truly wish her healing, as I have for the past years.

I think we are both in much brighter places in our lives now and hope we can continue into bright futures. Thanks always.